Trust
It has always been okay. Mammograms - okay. Female tests - okay. For thirty years I've always gotten the phone message - everything looks good. Until......I got a different call. Countless prayer warriors praying over me. But, the last 5 days have been the scariest of my life. Weeks ago, I asked someone to pray with me that whatever I faced I would have the strength and faith to believe that the Lord will be glorified through whatever the test results show. That is much easier when the news is good. Trust
“What time I am afraid, I will put my trust in thee.”
Psalms 56:3 ASV
I've spent three days reeling my mind back in. Don't let your imagination take over. Focus on how you feel today. The Lord is in control. Watching my sweet husband sit and a random tear fall. Wishing he would stop googling all of my crazy symptoms. Wearing a somewhat false smile when talking. Maybe they won't sense the enormous weight I'm feeling. Act normal. Don't fall apart in front of MP. I don't want to distract her from her school work. There are too many unknowns right now. Trust
“Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.””
Isaiah 12:2 NIV
I always considered myself to be healthy. I run or play tennis every day! My treadmill or bike are not just used as extra clothes hangers. I'm 44! I just had a birthday! I have a wonderful job, a precious family, a precious school, sweet friends, a glorious church, ......I've lost my mom, my in-laws, our second child. Trust
“In you, Lord my God, I put my trust.”
Psalm 25:1 NIV
While we are waiting for more tests we trust in His plan for my life. We thank also the many people praying as we await a diagnosis. The prayers have given us comfort and encouragement! Our faith rests in knowing that God is on His throne. May He be glorified through this and all aspects of our life.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" Matt 6:25-27
Ali,I know exactly how you feel. Three year ago I got not so good news too but I put my total trust in Our God and He was faithful and saw me through the difficult time. He will do the same for you. I am here for you if you want to talk and praying for all of you. Deu 31:8 says, Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you. Love you much.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your prayers and encouragement!
DeleteAli, as you know my life was ripped apart 8 months ago. I found out that I can't get through an hour without the Lord holding me up. Through the death of my son I have discovered that God talks to us in ways that I never imagined. When I didn't want to live God would push me through that hour. At my lowest He showed me there is a light at the end of this tunnell. So as I get on my knees tonight I will be asking for him to show you that light and to push you through the hours of worry and doubt. God's words to me were "your going to make it" and I know they are His words to you also. Betty
ReplyDeleteLove you Betty! Thank you!
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ReplyDeleteAli,
ReplyDeleteOne thing I know of the Lord is that He is faithful. Through difficult and hard times is where the biggest growth happens.
A good friend of mine taught me years ago that especially through difficult times, I had to get myself to the point that I could be thankful. She told me to start thanking the Lord for the situation... Even if my heart wasn't feeling thankful at the moment... And to not be afraid to tell the Lord that I wasn't feeling very thankful at the moment. I looked at her as if she had lost her mind. She gently reminded me that the Word says that we are to be thankful in ALL things.... Good and bad. It is easy to be thankful when times are good. It's another thing when times are difficult.
I found that as I started trying to thank Him, that after a while my fears and worries began to be replaced with strength and determination, it is in these difficult times that we learn an aspect of God that we may never have learned any other way.
Since He has allowed this situation to come about, go on and and ask Him what He wants you to learn from this situation. You want to get the whole lesson, because you don't want a "repeat" class! And be open to what He is trying to teach you. Read the Word. Spend time with Him.
The old adage "If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it" rings true. Because He is faithful, you can know with certainty that He will be with you each step of the way no matter the outcome.
He already knows what you are facing. He knows your fears. He knows your worries. He knows your heart. Trust Him to walk you through.
I hope this is encouraging to you.
Terri Lovett
Thank you Terri! We are believing that things will work out just fine and I will be on the road to recovery soon! Thank you for your kind words!
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